The State of Boredom
The first thing on today’s agenda… I’M SORRY. To any and all who bothered to read my idle banter and found me missing over the past few months. You see a lot has been going on in my life. Nothing I’d call life altering or nerve wrecking but stuff none the less. I am back in Sharjah living in the hostel with my college mates and going to college everyday (well, I miss a few days here and there, after all, a man needs his sleep). I am eating 2 and a half square meals a day (I normally miss breakfast). I am watching a number of TV sitcoms each better or worse than the next. And most importantly I am still bored out of my mind.
What makes you tick? Music, football, physics, art, blogs, literature, philosophy, religion, computers,…….? The list is endless, but can each of you tell me one thing that is able to occupy your mind completely? One thing, one train of thought that never seems old. Maybe a song, a book, a story anything. Something that you think about when you sleep at night. I can’t seem to choose. In all honesty I think I have deteriorated from an intelligent boy to a stagnant individual. All these things at some point in my life held some level of interest for me, even computer games to which my friends will testify held my attentions for a good deal. And yet it seems none of them get me thinking anymore. Like all the mysteries are hidden from me or solved already. With every new thing that I delve into, I learn something, possibly nothing my parents will find useful, but something. Even watching a childish Japanese cartoon series i learnt a little Japanese. Once I am able to figure out where the train of thought is headed, it gets boring.
Art, music, psychology all of which I have but a primal understanding, using common sense where fact is unavailable. Endless questions arise when one stares at a piece of art or listens to a new song. Yet I still don’t feel challenged. I know I can find the answers if I look, so I don’t bother looking at all. Is it my mental lazyness or is it true? Does the journey become meaningless when the destination is known? And if thats true, then what purpose does the journey hold??
Yet again, many questions, no answers.
ah!finally i get 2 read smting!!feels gud 2 no wats up in dat head of urs!!
ahem….so u think u no wat ur deatination is?! r u sure???think again sweetie…u dont!! wat u think is ur destination im sure is surely not if its makin u a ’stagnant individual’!!wat u think is ur so called destination is not challengin u??? hw da hell do u call it ur destination?!!!!! 2 reach a destination is da biggest challenge one can eva face coz its nt da end of ur journey its da beginin of happiness……..think abt it:P
muah
regardless of the destination, the journey is what we look forward to, always.
and in most cases we know or can guess the destination but the really interesting part remains the journey
the main thing we want in life..is a push or a pull..either way, to keep on moving. not to just reach and stop.
sometimes i feel the same way…the answer’s just beneath the surface and it ain’t that interesting anyway so why bother. but there are a lot of things which aren’t that simple and im sure if u look u’ll find a lot of them which are definitely going to challenge you. it doesn’t have to be a song or book…you could actively look for more complicated stuff.
i guess sometimes the journey is the whole point, sometimes the destination and sometimes its both. i figure something out for the joy of the process of figuring it out as well as the feeling of delight i get at finally cracking it. if u figure something out easily enough but the answer to it makes you happy then the whole point is the destination. or its the journey -like a complicated physics problem…when you’re solving one, even if u finally don’t get the answer, you still enjoy the process, don’t you? at least i do…
anyway..that was my two paisa:)
ps: what i said above on the destination vs the journey is specifically for the mental thought process you were talking about. i think that kind of a question is too situation specific to have a general answer.
but in general, yeah, i think its a bit of both.
and for life, as a whole, its the journey:)